Monday, 16 July 2007 | 6:34 pm

Fear

I'm scared. Absolutely terrified that once I leave the comfort of high school, there will be nothing left. I know I have a LONG time to think about this, I'm only in my first year of year 12. Still...

I have friends graduating this year. I know it's completely irrational of me, but I keep thinking that once they leave, I'll never see them again. University scares me. What if I don't get into medicine? What if I don't fulfill everything I set out to achieve? Is it possible to fail in life?

It's like taking a leap into the abyss, no matter how hard you prepare, it will never be enough. I've been preparing since the day I first stepped into an educational institution. Every single precious second I have spent learning, studying and worrying culminates in a single score that will determine the rest of my life. If I stuff everything up, that's 13 years of my life...wasted. How can I not be scared?

The future is a scary place, are you ready? Is anyone ready? When life throws you into that deep, dark abyss filled with the unknown, will you fly? Or will you hit the ground and shatter every single dream that keeps you together, that makes you you?

Life is unpredictable, do or die. It's the only way.