rain on me
Tuesday 31 July 2007 | 10:09 pm

Not the same without you

Missing you, the person I had a crush on for over two years. You made me laugh so much, when you left for good; I cried. I couldn't go half a day without thinking about you and wondering how you were. Time went by so quickly when you were around, too quickly.

Had we but world enough and time...

But we don't. Like all people in my life, you moved on to bigger and better things. The last time I saw you, I didn't say hi and neither did you. You were with your [ex?]girlfriend so I left you to it. There are so many things I want to talk to you about; music or a thousand lame jokes it matters not. But we haven't talked for so long, separated by gap that can't be bridged. What a difference the two years between us can make! I'd ask: How is uni? Do you still want to teach? Are you missing camp and the runs [only at BHHS, yeah baby!]?

Oh, if only you could see me now [if only I could see you]!

Just like you, I've pretty much moved on. But somewhere deep inside, a part of me will always miss you.

Love,
Mel

Saturday 28 July 2007 | 7:35 pm

My sour mood just got better!

Yay! Worked from 11:00am till 6:00pm today. I'm totally exhausted but I LOVE MY JOB! Yeah, even though towards the end I was tired, I was still pretty cheerful. It's a winning combination of cake and coffee, what's not to love? Plus, Alvin's parents are really nice so it's a great working environment. I feel all good inside because I worked so hard. Aggie doesn't think so, but she works all the time. She thinks I'm a freak because I was chanting "cake!cake!cake!cake!" over and over under my breath as I was washing the dishes.

I love how her mum says "cack" instead of "cake" and how she does that Russel Peters' "tirty four fifteeeeee", I love how Ming always stands around with his mouth agape, I love the smell of coffee beans in the coffee grinder, I love how the sushi bar is right opposite, I love how there is a hot cleaner, I love serving customers and carrying coffee and do you think maybe I love it too much? It's bound to wear off after awhile...

I've had a self-inflicted bad week, because of my temporary moodiness. Started off with me grumpy then, [in my head] things got worse and worse. I say 'in my head' because things weren't that crap; well they weren't any crapper than usual; I just got annoyed at every tiny little detail. I find that when I'm annoyed, I relive every single unresolved conflict in the past 2-3 years, so my mood gets worse and worse. Yeah, not as good a combination as cake and coffee. I started snapping at people for no reason and I'm really sorry. Anyway, I'm not irritated now, thanks to all the hard work I did today.

OH! OH! OMG! I asked my parents if I could learn how to play the violin next year after I pass my A-mus piano exam and they said YEESS! Yay! I'm so excited. Aggie wasn't that excited when I told her though. That sort of dampened my enthusiasm. Oh well, I'm still excited. Yay! Now all I have to do is work uber hard, kick ass in VCE, become a doctor and my life is sorted!

With love,
Mel

Pee.ess - My state of optimism will be short-lived. If you want something, better ask me now that I'm in a good mood. Haha!~

Friday 27 July 2007 | 8:33 pm

Creepy telemarketer

The phone rang so I picked it up, I could tell it was a telemarketer straight away so I told him my parents were out.

He asked, "why didn't you go out with your parents? Why are you at home alone?" I thought that maybe the person wasn't a telemarketer and I actually KNEW this person so I asked who it was.

He said, "my name is John, I TOLD you! Are you a student?" I told him I was. He kept asking me all these weird questions like "if you're a student why are you home alone?" "What are you doing by yourself?" and "do you watch any movies".

I totally over-reacted and fuh-reeeaked out. I told him I couldn't talk right now and hung up on him. Is it just me or are they getting scarier?

Love,
Mel

Tuesday 24 July 2007 | 8:32 pm

They're gonna stick me!

Oops, haven't updated for donkey years. People I don't usually talk to have been asking me about what's going on in my life so I figured now is as good a time as any to talk about myself some more.

I have to get my wisdom teeth pulled, which means surgery and general anesthesia for me. So not looking forward to it. It hurt quite a bit last time actually, especially the whole needle in crook of arm bit. Don't worry, I've got AGES to think about it. I'm getting it done in early December and recovery should be about a week so hopefully I'll be ready to pig out on Christmas Day.

It's only the second week of school and the homework is starting to pile up. I'm really regretting not attempting to catch-up during the holidays.

Work is going good. It's not that strenuous. The only problem is that I think I'm beginning to get a coffee addiction. Every time I go into the kitchen I feel like having coffee. Have you ever looked at food and thought you could taste it in your mouth then realized you REALLY wanted to eat it? Yeah, it's that feeling. I'm too young to be addicted! On Saturday, I made my first professional coffee and the milk I pulled was very good according to the boss. It was nice and frothy. Accidentally pressed the wrong button so it was super strong. I LOVE filling up the coffee grinder, smells SOOOOOOOOO good.

Recently, I've been pestering Jeremy for details of his yet-to-be-commenced [so he says] romance with Rowena. We argue a lot and I think he is as pissed off at me as I am of him. Everyone thinks there something going on because they're getting very sneaky....

Just got back from tuition. It was really fun. I sat with Alvin which generally makes a bad combination because we always laugh and talk a lot. Even Chan and Ying kept turning around to join in. Alvin had just bought a book about the top 1001 books to read before you die so we were having a flick through that and laughing at the weird names and even weirder pictures; eg. Fanny Hill which included a drawing of this man spanking a woman. We all get along so well so it was really fun. Now Alvin has made me want to eat toffee apples. Summer! Then we had a discussion about music, and sang really old songs by the Beatles like Eleanor Rigby and Yesterday.

Can't wait till the deb ball. I'm going to have so much fun! I should drag Shim shopping with me to make sure I don't buy shoes that make me taller than him. I saw a few nice pairs with by C'est le Bon at the Pines but they were $70 a pair! The Pines also has a Wittner but for shoes that expensive, I would expect something a bit better than what they've got. Tsk, so much to do, so little time!

With love,
Mel



Friday 20 July 2007 | 10:42 pm

The road less traveled

I took a walk today, with no destination in mind. It took about an hour and at one point I had no idea where I was; sudden left turn and "HEY! I know where I am now!". It's nice to just walk. I didn't know my area had so many beautiful houses. Cleared my mind up, breathing in the fresh air. I know I say I'll do it more often, but I probably won't.

I'm really unco-ordinated. There you go, today's sudden topic change. I walked into a wall yesterday. Well a doorway...misjudged the distance and WHAM! Went out for dinner for my mum's birthday. I cut the banana fritter for my brother and me, my half ended up on the floor due to my inability to hold a spoon. Then I went to the bathroom to wash off the golden syrup on my leg and nearly landed on my ass when I stepped off the carpet and onto the slippery tiled area. Yeah. Totally unco.

Haha I sound like a whiny 'woe is me, life sucks' person. I'm not really! I just tend to...gravitate towards my blog when I'm upset. After I'm done blogging about it, I'm not sad anymore! Genius.

With love,
Mel

Monday 16 July 2007 | 6:34 pm

Fear

I'm scared. Absolutely terrified that once I leave the comfort of high school, there will be nothing left. I know I have a LONG time to think about this, I'm only in my first year of year 12. Still...

I have friends graduating this year. I know it's completely irrational of me, but I keep thinking that once they leave, I'll never see them again. University scares me. What if I don't get into medicine? What if I don't fulfill everything I set out to achieve? Is it possible to fail in life?

It's like taking a leap into the abyss, no matter how hard you prepare, it will never be enough. I've been preparing since the day I first stepped into an educational institution. Every single precious second I have spent learning, studying and worrying culminates in a single score that will determine the rest of my life. If I stuff everything up, that's 13 years of my life...wasted. How can I not be scared?

The future is a scary place, are you ready? Is anyone ready? When life throws you into that deep, dark abyss filled with the unknown, will you fly? Or will you hit the ground and shatter every single dream that keeps you together, that makes you you?

Life is unpredictable, do or die. It's the only way.

Saturday 14 July 2007 | 9:16 pm

I think he's gay...

I had to work today, which is a pity because I was going to go with Rowena to Sydney Road to buy my debutante dress. Rowena and her dad ended up buying it for me and dropping it off at my house which was very nice of them. More on that later.

Alvin is gay.

I'm not joking! There's this cleaner who works regularly at The Pines. He drops off all our cups and plates in a giant box for washing. Anyway, after he left the shop, Alvin was like, "he's hot". Something that I'd already noticed but kept to myself.

ALVIN THINKS THE CLEANER IS HOT!

Aggie and I were really freaked out. Aggie told me about the time Alvin got jealous of this guy he knew because he had good skin. I witnessed firsthand Alvin flirting with two boys! After that, I couldn't help but laugh every time the hot cleaner walked past. At one point, he was bending over a table to pick something up and Alvin said, "ooooh...he's bending over". I was like..."EWWWWWWWWWW!"

I can't believe I'm going to the deb with him. I got my deb dress today! My whole family came with me to a classmate of my brother's house because her mother works at Alter it in Box Hill. She kept saying, "waaaah 靓 女(leng nui)" over and over in canto. My mother and her then got into a conversation first about my teeth [and how good they looked], then about my skin [and how smooth it was]. Yeah, if my head got any bigger, I wouldn't be able to stand up anymore.

The dress was WAY to big. It needs to be taken in about 5cm around the bust. My brother's friend's mum said she can do it. She did my formal dress so I trust her :). Once I get my shoes, she'll fix the length for me. I'm hoping with the extra material, it can be sewn to the side and hang down. What do you think? Yeah, the arm behind my back is holding up the dress lol.


Hope nobody else has the same one! Hmm, the picture is pretty blurry. My dad took it that's why!

With love,
Mel

Pee.ess - My legs hurt. I'm waiting for my brother to get off the massage bed so I can have a back rub. Ahh....

Thursday 12 July 2007 | 10:45 pm

Harry Potter

Yup, went to see it today. Alvin was late and we thought he wasn't coming so we kind of...left without him. Vincent invited himself, there was also Chan, Ying, Michelle, Mary, the amazing smart beautiful funny Nhu and...me. I don't really have much to say. The movie didn't leave and impression and apart from abusing Vincent, there was nothing much else to do.

Not really into those kinds of brain dead movies, where all you have to do is sit there and they explain everything to you. It's better when you actually have to try and decipher stuff yourself during the movie. Can't wait for the next book to come out though! I know I will go see the next Harry Potter movie when it comes out, because that's just the way it works, even though it will probably be just as boring.

I want to watch Hana Kimi now! Bye bye!

Love,
Mel

Pee.ess - Wow, short post.


-----edit-----
Sorry Nhu! I added you in. Really sorry!

Monday 9 July 2007 | 11:46 pm

Going Overboard?

Sorry, this post is really random. I was watching t.v when -KABAAM!- I was suddenly reminded of something that happened awhile back.

I thought I should tell you that my dad is very strange. Very intelligent. But very strange. He tends to think [shall I say] too big for the situation at hand. My dad is like, the crazy professor type. Most of the time, he's off with the fairies thinking up formulas to convert particle motion into wave motion and making up reasons for why time travel cannot exist (or some such).

Obviously, big-thinking tends to be a dominant personality trait in crazy professors (like my Ba). Unfortunately for me, this way of thinking doesn't exactly enable him to keep within the confines and practicalities of daily life. What would my daddy do without me *shakes head*.

Anyway, I was thinking about the time my dad tried to clean the toilet with a high pressure water cleaner. Obviously he doesn't clean toilets often. Picture this: Water traveling at a extremely high speed into a tiny toilet bowl. What do you think you get? You guessed correctly,

the answer is: water...EVERYWHERE.

He actually thought this method would WORK. I had to point out to him that, "HELLO? Relative to the size of a car, our toilet is tiny and WHAT IS THE POINT OF CLEANING THE BLOODY THING ANYWAY IF ALL OF THE WATER IN THE TOILET ENDS UP OUT OF THE TOILET!?!?!?"

*sigh*

Guess who had to mop up?

Love,
Mel

Pee.ess - Cleaning water off the ceiling whilst leaning over a toilet is never any fun. Especially if you drop your phone in. Despite popular belief, mobile phones and water are NOT actually compatible. Mobile phones, water and a turbo-speed washing machine is even worse. Just ask my mum, she knows all about it.

Sunday 8 July 2007 | 8:22 pm

Mel's got a REAL job!

YAY! I definitely have a job. Got there at 11am really freaked out, but I went up to the counter and said I was supposed to have a shift and it was my first day. The girl was really nice and asked if I wanted to wait for the bosses to come or just start. I said I'd wait but my dad yelled at me when I tried to follow him so I just went back and started working. Haha, started waitressing and taking out the coffee's straight away because I didn't know how to do anything else.

I was packing away some glasses and I broke one. It was a latte glass. I held it upside down by the handle and the glass slipped out of the base. Yup, learned rule number one right there: never hold a latte glass upside down by the handle. I was sweeping up the glass when the bosses arrived so that didn't look too good.

Well, doesn't matter...I HAVE A JOB! That's what counts! Still don't know how to use the cash register properly. I have to remember where all the buttons for the stuff is, other than that, I'm fine. It's so cool! Tells you how much change to give out. I burnt myself twice on the hot food trays, and my glasses steam up every time I empty the dishwasher. Oh FUN-NESS!

I bet I won't be enthusiastic about the whole job thing in a month...but DAMN, Michel's patisserie is a cool place to work! All that cake, and how I love my cake.

With love,
Mel

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Did I mention, there's a UNIFORM? White shirt and a cute little red apron. Hahaha!

Saturday 7 July 2007 | 6:49 pm

Oh Happy Day!

Yeah, it's pouring down with rain and I'm in a good mood. This is a first! I woke up at about 7 for piano. After that, I got ready to go shopping for a debutante dress with Rowena! She was running late because she had to give everyone lifts. Martin caused us to take an extra 15 minutes getting to Elgar Rd. Rowena's rock star cousin from England came shopping with us as well. Forgot his name, but I wasn't kidding about him being a rock star. Rowena's dad drove us to Sydney Rd in Brunswick. He and rock star cousin complained about the number of shops we went into and how long it was taking. Yeah. Typical.

To tell you the truth, I'm not such a great shopper either. I never usually set out on massive shopping expeditions and I have never come home with more than 2 shopping bags full of clothes.

Aaaanyway, deb dress shopping is tedious work. Rowena tried on a dress from this one shop which I though looked awesome on her. I think her dad was expecting me to try on something too, but I didn't. Then I felt weird haha. We went into another shop called Whisper of Love where I found a dress that looked pretty good but the only one in my size was black. I tried it on and it looked alright so when they get the Size 8 in white (Saturday) I'll go back and get it. It was less than 300 bucks! Score! That was the first deb dress I tried on. I'm so relieved.

I think Rowena's getting her dress custom made. Man, she's going to look SOOO good. I think we might be going back again next week so I'll pick up the dress I want then. We also went to another shop and I tried on a $700 strapless dress which laced up at the back just to see if it would stay up. If it wasn't $700 I would've got that one. It was SO pretty! I was SO pretty! I have such a big head...

To top it all off, we had hot chocolate and cookies! The hot chocolate was SO much better than Ashwyn's one. Yum. We then went back to the shop Rowena was interested in but it was closed. Then, WE BOUGHT 10 DOLLAR DRESSES! One each, different styles of course. Rowena's one is black and mine is....

pwetty isn't it?

And NOW, for the BEST news of all! I think I MAY have a job at Michel's Patisserie! You know how I've been pestering Alvin for ages to ask his parent's for a job for me? Well he told me there was an opening, so today, I walked in with my dodgy (and empty) CV and just asked. I have to go back tomorrow for a crash course in customer service...and if I'm any good...hopefully I have a job. YAYNESS! Once I'm confidant about actually working there, I'll tell you where it is. But for now, NO WAY!

With happy, sunshiny, rainbowy, buttercups and field mushroom love,
Mel

Thursday 5 July 2007 | 10:03 pm

Winter Wonderland!

Yeah, I dragged a few friends with me for an hour of on-ice torture. Well the good thing is that if you injure yourself, it won't hurt as much. Bless the numbing properties of ice! I didn't fall once! I'm brilliant. I think Darren and Alvin were having some kind of falling-over competition because they fell down...A LOT.

Ah! Man, got caught by ticket inspectors for not having a concession card. They were really nice, but I hope I don't get fined otherwise I'll be in deep deep...poo. Darren and Alvin INSISTED on chasing each other around Southern Cross Station. The rest of us looked on in horror and wondered, "do we know these people?".

Everyone but me under random unknown sculpture (it's the Docklands ya know? There are many random unknown sculptures)

There were eight people to start off with, ME!, Chan, Ying, Alice, Alvin, Dhanish, Darren and....Winson. Oh my gosh. I can't believe Dhanish invited him. Scary lah. Then Chris came with his sister. His sister is very nice. If Chris wanted us to go later he should have told me sooner that he wouldn't be able to make it in the morning. Chris and Elizabeth skated in the session after us, so it was a good opportunity to sit there and laugh because for once Chris sucked at something. Nah not really, we sat there and played with the stuff in Alice's Original Idiot showbag. There were two blackouts during their session. Sorry about the lack of photos guys! Everyone else kindly helped me with these, but I'm lazy and cbb taking photos!

Darren, Chan and Me!!

Me, Alvin, Chan and Alice

Me, Alvin an Alice
Me, Alice and Alvin (wth..)
Alice, that's so YOU daaaahling! I love showbags!
During the first blackout, as soon as the lights went off, everyone fell over HAHA! We were watching everyone skating when suddenly BAM! Hahahahaha! When the second one came, the fair people opened all the tent curtains. There was this hot guy. Yeah, I have the amazing ability to hone in on any hot guys in the area. I noticed him working on the snow slide before the blackout lol. I'm like....a satellite but less expensive. Hmm, I should put that on my CV right Alvin? Anyway, I said to Ying sotto voce, "Ying! Don't you think that guy is hot?". Ying looked at him for like, 5 seconds and then said, "Yeah!". Haha, I'm a genius.

After the second blackout, the power didnt come back so we all just left.

Well I had a good time skating, but after that it wasn't really much fun. Dhanish is the WORST person to take shopping. SERIOUSLY. With Winson too. They walked so SLOW. Then they get lost. Then we have to spend ages LOOKING for them and AHHH! Eventually the boys with Elizabeth went to the State Library and us normal ones went shopping by ourselves. Well I bought a cheapo shirt dress thing.

I had tuition so as soon as I came home, I started my chinese essay. Then I had tuition, and now I'm thinking about watching another drama. I already finished 東方茱麗葉 (Tokyo Juliet) Hmmm, I think I'll watch 花樣少年少女 (Hana Kimi). Hey, I just realized that this is one Vanessa recommended to me. I didn't know it was also called Hana Kimi till I looked it up. Well I'm definitely watching it now. Wu Zun MAY look like a girl, but he has huge muscles for an asian person. Oh! Also has Jiro Wang from ISWAK, Ah Jing remember? They're both from Fahrenheit. Actually, it's weird how they recycle their actors...I just realized I recognize most of them from other dramas...weird. Wow that was completely off topic.

With love,
Mel

Tuesday 3 July 2007 | 8:51 pm

Hell hath no fury...

This morning I woke up and thought, 'today is a good day to buy boots'. I started getting really enthusiastic about it too, which means anybody caught up in the tornado that is 'Mel being enthusiastic' which probably get hurt. Poor Darren.

As soon as I got out of bed, I had to change and get ready to go to Box Hill and meet Auntie Khim (+ Darren and Kevin) for lunch. Mum, Eug and I went with them to eat at David and Camys. After lunch, I dragged Darren around with me to look for a nice pair of boots. Everyone else went back to my house and poor Darren was left alone and defenseless, with nothing standing between him and a good 2 hours of shopping. I eventually settled for a pair at L 'n L's for $65, only problem was, I didn't have enough money...so I used Darren's money.

The conversation went a little like this:
Me - "Daaaaaaaar-ren! I like this pair. Pay for me!"
Darren - "ok..." *takes out wallet*

Who said I don't get what I want?

Anyhoo, I like them lots, and I bet I won't be able to wear them after a week because I've put them on and taken them off so many times. Now what possible combinations of clothes would go with these boots? Hmmm, guess I'll have to go shopping again...oh DAAAAARREN!!!!!

Sunday 1 July 2007 | 10:28 pm

The Art of Chinese Massage Torture

Oh, yes.

It's like dripping water between one's eyes for days on end. I heard the Chinese invented that as a form of annoying the truth out of their torture-subject. How not fun.

My mum made me lie on her beloved massage bed. I told her I would endure the massage again if it made me grow another 3 feet. Fairly reasonable don't you think? Man, it HURTS, as you would expect from bloody SPINE ELONGATION. Oh well, I'm pretty sure my mum will make me do it again, she says I will have good skin if I do and that's enough convincing for me! I treated myself to some chocolate cake after, as a reward for my so patiently lying on the massage bed as heated stakes were kneaded into my back. I like cake so much, always makes me feel better. I think I'm going to make a cake this holiday. My mum unexpectedly dug up a cake book so that's all I'll be doing this holiday. Eating and making cake!

On a completely different topic altogether, I really really really really want to go shopping. In fact, I actually NEED to go shopping. That just lets you all know the desperate-ness of my situation, what girl only goes shopping when she needs to? This holiday, I'm going to buy boots! I want to go to England at the end of the year, which is highly unlikely. My dad will let me go to Malaysia though, so if I go there, I can shop SHOP SHHOOOOOOPPPPP! Yeah, I know I wouldn't be allowed to go on a spending spree in Australia. I will think happy thoughts about Malaysia in order to temporarily appease my insatiable desire to spend SPEND SPPPPPEEEEEEEEND!

My back is really starting to cane and DAMMIT, I need a job!

Love,
Mel