Friday, 15 June 2007 | 9:18 pm
If you could see me now...
Audrey lent me the book If You Could See Me Now by Cecelia Ahern. She says she only cried once. Well let me tell you, I've been a gushing fountain of tears since about...Chapter 5 or so. I haven't quite finished, but at around Chapter 5, I predicted what was going to happen and I've been crying ever since. Let me tell you, that's a lot of crying.
My face and eyes have gone all red. My nose looks like a giant tomato about to explode. Everything is puffy. It's even more unattractive than it sounds to be honest. I should stop crying...but I can't. *sigh*. Have a read of this:
"When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall it makes a noise. But as for your heart, when that breaks, it's completely silent. You would think as it's so important it would make the loudest sound in the world, or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a symbol or the ringing of a bell. But it's silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.
If there is a noise, it's internal. It screams and no one can hear it but you. It screams so loud your ears ring and your head aches. It thrashes around in your chest like a great white shark caught in the sea; it roars like a mother bear whose cub has been taken. That's what it looks like and that's what it sounds like, a thrashing, panicking, trapped great big beast, roaring like a prisoner to it's own emotions. But that's the thing about love - no one is untouchable. It's as wild as that, as raw as an open flesh wound exposed to salty sea water, but when it actually breaks, it's silent. You're just screaming on the inside and no one can hear it." - If You Could See Me Now by Cecelia Ahern
Now tell me your heart didn't just break reading that? I sense a trend with Cecelia Ahern. Thanks to lovely Audrey, I also read one of her other books, Where Rainbows End which was really sad. What is it with her and heart-breaking novels? If you're a girl [or guy that likes romance], I DO suggest you go read them both if you don't know what I'm talking about. Chan told me they were planning on making If You Could See Me Now into a movie with Hugh Jackman playing one of the lead roles as Ivan. I definitely want to check that out even though I will probably have to cover my face to mask my tell-tale red nose and puffy eyes.
Ok, I admit I only started typing this entry so that I would stop crying long enough for me to run to the kitchen and get a drink of water. My eyes are still puffy and red, so I might just talk about my day.
Depressing.
Did nothing. I got 83% on my chemistry exam though which isn't too bad. I feel guilty though, because I didn't work all that hard for it...so I feel as if I didn't really earn it. Now I'm hungry. I think I will go for that glass of water now.
With love,
Mel
My face and eyes have gone all red. My nose looks like a giant tomato about to explode. Everything is puffy. It's even more unattractive than it sounds to be honest. I should stop crying...but I can't. *sigh*. Have a read of this:
"When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall it makes a noise. But as for your heart, when that breaks, it's completely silent. You would think as it's so important it would make the loudest sound in the world, or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a symbol or the ringing of a bell. But it's silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.
If there is a noise, it's internal. It screams and no one can hear it but you. It screams so loud your ears ring and your head aches. It thrashes around in your chest like a great white shark caught in the sea; it roars like a mother bear whose cub has been taken. That's what it looks like and that's what it sounds like, a thrashing, panicking, trapped great big beast, roaring like a prisoner to it's own emotions. But that's the thing about love - no one is untouchable. It's as wild as that, as raw as an open flesh wound exposed to salty sea water, but when it actually breaks, it's silent. You're just screaming on the inside and no one can hear it." - If You Could See Me Now by Cecelia Ahern
Now tell me your heart didn't just break reading that? I sense a trend with Cecelia Ahern. Thanks to lovely Audrey, I also read one of her other books, Where Rainbows End which was really sad. What is it with her and heart-breaking novels? If you're a girl [or guy that likes romance], I DO suggest you go read them both if you don't know what I'm talking about. Chan told me they were planning on making If You Could See Me Now into a movie with Hugh Jackman playing one of the lead roles as Ivan. I definitely want to check that out even though I will probably have to cover my face to mask my tell-tale red nose and puffy eyes.
Ok, I admit I only started typing this entry so that I would stop crying long enough for me to run to the kitchen and get a drink of water. My eyes are still puffy and red, so I might just talk about my day.
Depressing.
Did nothing. I got 83% on my chemistry exam though which isn't too bad. I feel guilty though, because I didn't work all that hard for it...so I feel as if I didn't really earn it. Now I'm hungry. I think I will go for that glass of water now.
With love,
Mel